AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! the bus to go to cfc today came five minutes early! i was walking leisurely thinking i've got lots of time and then i turn the corner onto columbia and i see the bus already there, so i start running and the bus starts driving away! and so in desperation i call a friend who had a car but they said they couldn't wake up to go to church, meanwhile the bus from slc drove rite past me! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! If i didn't talk on the phone i could have caught the bus!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! It's okay amy... haha. So i spent this morning in quiet time, it was nice just to be quiet, to be still. The last time i spent this much time reflecting and just being still was during the summer agape retreat. We spend so much time always hurrying here and there, and trying to meet deadlines but God just wants us to be still b/c He's in control. i'm reading a book called 'a childlike heart' that i borrowed from hannah. It was saying how as kids we didn't worry abt things because we knew that our parents had it all planned. As we grow up we start depending on ourselves and when we don't have control we start worrying, but in fact God has everything under control.

Yesturday i got to go swimming! It was so much fun cuz i haven't swam for a long time. So, here i was doing the back crawl and i by accident hit this guy cuz u know how u can't see anything behind u when u're floating belly up. It was really funny cuz he thought i was drowning... oh boy, wat impressions i make.... haha... Oh yeah, to add on to how stupid i looked, i broke the elastic part on my goggles too... haha... It was alot of fun though, me and hannah tried to see who could hold our breath the longest, it was just fun doing random stuff like that.

Last nite i couldn't sleep cuz there were a bunch on drunk guys that were sitting rite in front of my door! I was so ticked off cuz they were ripping stuff off the walls too... they ripped my birthday flower off the door and also a pic of me and my roommate. wat a bunch of losers! grrrr... they also broke chairs inside our lounge, and i live rite next to the lounge! i heard them banging in there... i was scared to come out of my room. Stupid people. Who vandalized their own floor? shesh. They were drunk and singin out of tune... it was not pleasant.

You know what i realized? i have a hard time expressing my true feeling on blogs. lol... except i am rite now... haha, how ironic. i guess, many times its not that i don't have anything to say but perhaps i don't feel safe saying all that i feel. I'm a very direct person, when i say something i usually really do mean it so it's hard for me to say exactly wat i feel knowing that some stranger could be reading this! lol... i'm just a bit paranoid. SO here is my attempt to forget about the stranger reader out there and write sincerely to my friends who care enough when they don't know whats going on in my life to check this blog out. Things have been going well so far this term... a sense of peace, i guess now that i'm home here at waterloo. I realized through the last few times that i've been back at rhccc that yes things have changed. The difference is that before i was truly part of agape and rhccc but now when i go back i'm more of the audience. That made me realize that no longer was my support system agape (as a whole, i mean) but ccf. I'm really looking forward to getting to know everyone at ccf more personally... but my relationships that have been built up at agape is wat has held me together the past term. I'm very grateful of the degree of transparency that our relationships share... that we can make stupid comments and laugh at it together... to do embarassing things with each other. I've decided to take on the Jabez challenge, which is to pray the prayer of Jabez for every morning for the next 30 days and to reread the book once every week for 4 weeks... trying to find the discipline to do this! Keep me accountable! I'm slowly learning to dream

Have you seen the wind?

Can you catch the wind?

See a breeze?

Its presence is revealed by the leaves on a tree

An image of my faith in the unseen.

It's been quite awhile since i last wrote! hmm... well, so far this term has been better than last term. I guess it's just the way my schedule is, i hv more time to do work and also now i know how things go around here. My classes start a bit later in the day now so i have more time to do devos and i really hope i stay consistent with it! I had a good wknd, got to go home and relax. Finally got to watch edward scissorhands... hehe... it was a good but sad movie tho. I felt so sad when at the end he ended up living in isolation. lol, when i watch movies i really get into them... i guess that's why i enjoy watching almost anything. Alot of things happened since i last wrote but now when i'm here to write abt it, i don't feel like i have anything to write. Sometimes silence is good.