Second week back and i'm already quite busy, thanks to calculus which i'm so lost in. lol, however, i am hopeful that it'll get better. It's a slow process learning to enjoy school and keeping my priorities straight.

Something that has been bothering me is that i've noticed as we grow older we put less and less efforts into giving each other gifts. So many times for birthdays and christmas the 'gift' was treating people for dinner, a drink, or go to the mall and pick out something you want. I really enjoy that too and personally i give people 'gifts' like that too =P... but at the same time i really do miss the pleasent surprise of recieving a neatly wrapped gift and wondering wat's inside... oh the anticipation! haha... Another thing that bothers me is when people say 'oh sorry, i forgot your present at home'. of course they never actually end up remembering and you're left to forever wonder what it was. So there's a few possibilities of why you don't end up recieving it: one, is that they never really got you anything but was too embarassed to say so. two, you were so important in their lives that they really forgot to give you your present (pardon my sarcasm, lol) and three, (this one really hurts) they got you a present but for some 'reason' decides against giving it to you (perhaps deciding they want it for themselves!). haha... And then, (we all at some point have done this, let's admit it) the giving of completely useless items that will fall forever into the gift recycle. This case happens mostly during christmas, you open the gift with great anticipation and expectation only to find something you wonder if they just took out from their basement... this is fine when it's from an aquaintance but it does hurt when friends do that to you... of course we'll give them the benenfit of the doubt that they didn't recycle another gift and did, in fact, really think that you'll like it.

I have been recently battling again the common misconceptions that i have grown up accustomed to... well, actually since i turned 19. Before my 19th birthday i had never felt 'old' before, and then it hit me right after my 19th bday that next yr i'll be turning the 'big' 2-0!! But when i thought abt it turning 20 is actually not old at all... at least i really don't feel that much different from when i came out of high school... i still feel like the same ackward teenager i was in high school. I think there's this misconception (at least for kids) that when you go off to university and you turn a certain age you are, voila, an adult! When i was a kid i thought university was so so so so far away... so far that i'll never really reach it. And i thought when people reached a certain age they'll be so independent... haha, of course in gr.2 i also thought that kids in gr.6 were so much older and smarter than me. Now as a sit here in the middle of my second year i realize that we're not old at all... i'm still so dependent on my parents. This is THE time of my life where i will be open to so many doors of opportunities and be able to learn the most, both in books and in life. Learning to treasure every moment.