running after buses

Today has been the ultimate 'running after buses' day... lol. First, in the morning me and hannah were walking to the columbia townhouses where they pick people up to go to CFC (community fellowship church). Then suddenly i see the bus coming so we started running... oh man, looked so stupid... lol. I've really been enjoying the services at CFC cuz they are so direct and so applicable to my everyday life.
"... But one thing I do: forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3:13, 14
Trying hard to focus on God and run this marathon... we're not meant to crawl with all these burdens that we carry with us on a marathon... we're meant to just run. And boy did we run today... i mean, literally.

The second time I ran after the bus was after service, we came back to the SLC and before going to conestoga mall we had to buy bus tickets and then we decided to buy our lunch first so we could eat on the bus. We walked out and realized we were gonna be late so we started running to catch the bus. One thing: hot drinks = no running... oh man, poor sarah who carried all our drinks... me and hannah were running to catch the bus and all u could hear far behind us 'wait! wait! ahhhhhhhhh! '... it was so funny! sorry sarah, thanks for ur sacrifice! lol... So we got on the bus and then we decided to transfer to another route which would be faster. We get off and realize that the next bus wasn't gonna come for another fifteen minutes so we wanted to get back on to the bus that we just got off... it kinda drove past us... so we ended up waiting for the other bus, lol... anyway, the bus came and we were able to reach conestoga mall safe and soundly... but what a journey... lol. It was such a great day, we went shopping for Christmas presents and then we watched 'the incredibles'. It was such a good movie! so funny... luckily for the bus ride back we didn't need to run.

love break me

Mark me with Your grace
Shape me in Your wisdom
Place in me a heart
Of mercy
Open up my eyes
Let me see Your glory
Lead me to the place
You want me

Love, break me now
Strip me down
May Your beauty
Deep inside of me resound
Through me be found
Come break me now

Guide me in Your truth
Mold me in Your nature
Birth in me a hope
To hold on
Show me how to wait
Teach me how to listen
Be in me the strength
To let go

Break me now...

Love, hear my plea
Rescue me, bring Your peace
I have come to You on bended knee
I'm desperate for Your breath in me
Your ears to hear, Your eyes to see
Set me free, come set me free

Like rain flowing over me
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starfield

random thoughts

This week was nice... it wasn't exciting or like 'wow!'... but i felt very peaceful. I'm just really glad that assignments and labs have died down and i can now take a breath! Last weekend was just pure work... so hardcore that it wasn't much of a weekend. Still midterms to go!

I really can't believe that I've almost done half of my first year in university! honestly, summer felt like just yesturday... everything from september til now just seemed to go by in a blur. At the beginning of university i questioned myself whether my decision was right to come to UW cuz it seemed that my dream of being an optometrist was just so far, so far... but you know what i realized was that sometimes its not your destination that matters, it's about the journey. You know, everyone makes a big deal about, oh you're in biomed... wow... (nerd)... lol... or 'engineering'... another gasp... lol. But this stuff isn't going to matter at the end, our existence wasn't meant to be weighed like this. Still don't know what i'm gonna become, but not lost because i know i'm in God's hands. Hence, life on autopilot again... you can read my first entry if you don't get what i'm talking about.

I wanted to come home this weekend but i can't cuz my parents aren't gonna be around for most of the weekend so they told me there's no point of me coming home. So, i guess i'll have to stay till Christmas... at the beginning i wanted to go home alot but now it's okay, i'm enjoying it here. While i've been here at loo i've realized how much I survive on music. It is such a big mental, emotional and stress relief for me and i never thought i'll miss practicing piano for two hours everyday but i do.

Last night me, sarah, my roommate, and some other of our friends came to our place and we watched really really old chinese movies... it was hilarious! oh, what entertainment we discover here! lol...

Oh yeah, for those who don't know my room is the first room on the floor and me and sarah end up having to open the door all the time cuz people either forget their keys or they're visiting people. I've got only one thing to say: knock and the door will be opened. there is absolutely no need to bang and shake the door! lol.. ok, done my venting... i shall go now. lol

Walking in a Winter Wonderland

It's snowing! yay! I love winter, even though it's cold but I love the warm, jolly feeling that comes with this season. Time to take our the winter decorations! hehe... oh yeah, last friday after my chem test i had to go to the PAS (the psych building) to let a grad student practice conducting the WAIS test, which is a intelligence test. oh, and by the way the PAS is such a confusing building, it's so easy to get lost! i always wondered if they're conducting some 'underground' experiment with hidden cameras to see how people react when faced with a maze... do they just keep walking, or do they look for the map? lol... or maybe i'm just making this all up. anyway, so for two and a half hours i sat there and the grad student just kept asking me question after question... and honestly, i've never felt so stupid in my life!!!! it's not even funny! i knew some of these questions where supposed to be common sense and really simple but i couldn't answer them! i think i prob looked really drained and dazed too cuz he kept asking me if i needed a break, lol... i wish they'll tell me my score but they said they can't cuz he's not a professional yet... and then again perhaps i don't really want to know, lol. After that i stopped by sarah's place and we played chinese checkers! hehe... here is us thinking hard about our next move, lol.

shine for you

One thing I know
is that You've changed my life
I give You my all
all You are is good

Give You my heart
cause it's only You I seek
give You my praise
cause I believe in You

Look across the world
and let us shine for You, Lord
the whole world is Yours and I
want to live for You, oh God

All that I know
is that You've changed my life
I give You my all
All You are is good

Carry the lost
make my prayer in this life real
carry my cross
hold on 'til I see You
I want to live
I want to love You more
I want to be used

Father in all of the world
may Your word be heard
may it stay on my lips
to live what I speak
until Your kingdom come
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words and music by Marty Sampson

fiddling with the webcam

an 'adult' now

Today is the fourth day that i've been eighteen... still feel like a kid, hehe... i had such an awesome weekend, and i just realized how blessed i am to have such a great family and so many friends that showed that they cared and showered me with their love. I came back to waterloo on sunday night and i really didn't expect anything cuz technically my birthday was over... but when i opened the door to my room i found it all decorated with ballons and a moulin rouge poster, it was such a nice surprise. but that wasn't it, after i showered and was getting ready to sleep and the door opens and i was surpised again with my friends singing happy birthday and holding a ice cream cake. It was so nice and thoughtful! Thank you, guys! I had a fun weekend, but now it's time to catch up with work! oh man... i had my calc test on monday which i really don't think i did well on... there's this constant struggle to just do my best and not put so much stress on numbers... i guess, this is all just part of the experience... Since the time i've come too loo i found that time at uni passes at a totally different pace. It's really weird, cuz in high school when i was at home i could get things done by a certain time and then go watch tv... hehe, it's all about tv... lol... but now, it always feels like there's not enough time but i don't feel like there's been more work, it feels like time just passes faster here...

Life on Auto Pilot

hmm... today was a rainy day at waterloo. Hoping tomorrow the sun will come out again. "Majesty... majesty... Your grace as found me just as I am... empty headed but alive in Your hands... We sing, majesty... majesty... Forever I am changed by Your love... in the presence of Your majesty." I always found this song so touching, to realize that God's love is so great for us... that even we have nothing, God still loves us so much. Sometime with school and everything i feel like, why am I doing this? is it for money? to be 'successful' one day? But then everytime i listen to this song, i'm reminded that even if i'm stripped from everything and i am what the world considers a 'failure', God will still have His arms open wide to me. It's such a hard thing to do but i'm working at it... to allow God be the drive of my life. Hence, life on auto pilot...